Tracey
Hi there I have been struggling with rejection and not belonging. I have no family at all,I grew up in so much abuse and dysfunction it just seems to always take me down no matter what I do its always there . Its so hard to believe that I deserve love and respect .
I try but never succeed , This is not easy as I'm not sure if you understand how hard this is ,and the struggle I live with almost every day. I have been told I don't matter and I'm hated and this was from a Christian , I hide myself and my heart and find that I can t tell people or they will judge me by saying I have not enough faith.
I lived with 2 room mates for 5 years and moved this past May those 5 so moving was really hard for me because it was like rejection but she said we will be still good friends but she does not talk to me at all.so things trigger this I do suffer with ptsd because of my child hood this is not easy ay all .I want to know the true meaning of the love from God but its just not there.I have seen so much violence as a child even as a adult . I need a change